Thursday, January 13, 2011

Baby Cami needs our prayers !!!

This is what Cami's mommy had to say ..
Please pray for all of them , and for baby Cami to get better soon.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Not Even Sure How To Begin...

Camryn is sick. She is literally close to death right now.

1. Camryn is now Blind
2. Camryn now has seizures
3. Camryn has tons of brain bleeds
4. Camryn has a collapsed lung
5. Camryn probably has more that I can't remember right now

Last but certainly not least...

Camryn has to have a trach placed tomorrow. Why? you ask... Well... Cami is having trouble breathing without a machine doing it for her now. She has oxygen on at all times but her sats are not good. She is on heliax (sp?) and Comfort Flow to help her. She had a procedure yesterday and I got to see the horrific pictures of the problem. Due to the breathing tube she has a ton of scarring in her throat and now only has an opening the width of a needle to breathe. Camryn cannot get in enough oxygen. So, I was given 3 options. They are as follows...

1. Do the surgery to try and repair the damage
2. Put in a trach
3. Let "nature take it's course" ie- let her suffocate to death

#1- Sounds great right? Well, not really because while he is cutting away- Camryn is getting no oxygen at all. So, she will die.
#2- The trach- I hate this option- but it will save her life.
#3- Not in this lifetime- I will die first- as in "over my dead body"

It is scheduled for 12pm tomorrow unless they have to do it by emergency before then. Please keep her in your prayers because I don't know what I will do if I lose her. I CAN'T LOSE HER. I.would.rather.DIE.
My Ob/Gyn has prescribed me Z*oloft and X*anax to deal with this. There isn't a pill in the world that is going to fix this. I can't believe my life. I am very MAD right now. I would do ANYTHING to be in her place. I would trade places with her if I could- but I can't. I feel responsible- I brought her into this world. I WANTED A CHILD FOR SO DAMN LONG and I finally got them and I don't know what I did, but I did something because Cami is is DYING right in front of me!! I have to stay strong for Cody. I have to stay strong for my husband. My husband despite being over 6 foot tall and being able to lift over 300 pounds is not able to deal with this. He leans on me- I am about to BREAK. This blog is my only outlet- so I apologize for being so negative, but I have to get it out before I SNAP and hurt someone. I am ANGRY at the hospital. I am angry at a nurse who had the nerve to try and touch me. She didn't like the results. I am just sorry to Cami and Cody.


There is a chip in on my side bar to donate to Cami';s family.. If you can help ..

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